Actually, I was hoping to write about the LA marathon (official website here) after I finished it, but now I’m having second thoughts. By the way, just the description of ‘from the stadium to the sea’ is intimidating right now. So I thought I better post this and if I chicken out, I would have at least trained and tried. Thoughts today include:
- Will I even cross the line in time?
- I must have been crazy to sign up! :0
- This is my first and only marathon and it has been raining so I haven’t trained very well. Yikes!
I actually ran an 8K/5 miles fundraiser yesterday for fun…in the rain. It was an experience for sure. I made sure to slow down on slopes so I don’t slip…I had rain on my face and arms and it was cold. But I was familiar with the route and I’ve done 5 miles on a regular basis, so it was fun. I was a bit disappointed that I didn’t beat my time from last year (slower by 24 seconds) but with the rain and a side stitch (didn’t breathe correctly), I think I did ok overall. But a marathon? Maybe I’m having a bad day, but could I really manage more than 5x the amount I just ran yesterday? I’ve been eating more carbs today (sorry diet, but I will get back to eating better tomorrow), and I guess I pushed myself to go faster than normal on that hill…but I can’t do that in a marathon right? It’s all about survival!
Honestly, I like running. Especially long distance. I don’t run fast, but I like having time to myself to think through different things, enjoy whatever plants and interesting views I encounter, and I especially LOVE to think that I’m burning off extra calories. But not 26.2 miles! And yes, there’s a nice running adrenaline that kicks in for me after mile 4, but I know I haven’t hit the wall yet since I haven’t run long enough. I’m scared. I don’t want that to happen during the marathon. I’ve gone maybe 10 miles outside back in January, another 10 miles recently on treadmill, and maybe 25-30 miles cumulatively in a week, but it has been raining so much, I can’t get very many long runs in. I’m sure lots of people run in bad weather, but I have my reservations…I’ll explain why. I actually don’t mind running in rain, but it’s the slippery aspect and risk for injury that makes me worry.
I’m embarrassed to admit I fell while running…in front of a busy intersection! I ran in the rain and slipped on leaves many times. But this time I fell when I tripped on uneven concrete on my last step of the run. Talk about bad luck. Worse yet, I fell while holding my iPhone and cracked the screen. So while I was looking around to see how many people saw me fall, I was trying to figure out how much it would cost to fix my phone. Luckily I didn’t injure myself on that fall. (And luckily the screen wasn’t very pricey to fix). Whew!
I should also mention about 6 months ago, I injured myself when I got knocked off mid-jump on a bosu ball during bootcamp. That was the first time I ever got injured and resting for awhile without exercise actually made me mildly depressed. I was truly humbled by the simple tasks of going up and down stairs and standing on one foot to get dressed. That was not fun. I had been the primary caretaker of my kids and all of a sudden I couldn’t do anything for them. I had gotten used to being so active and the doctors said I have to go easy for 3-6 months. I was cautious and listened but as soon as I could, I took a short hike and felt so much better. To me, there’s something about being outside and in nature that makes everything seem ok. My X-rays revealed an ankle sprain and the doctors said I was lucky nothing broke, but I have to wear an ankle brace for 3-6 months. I still wear it out of precaution even though I feel that I have recovered. It was a slow progression back to my workout routine, but I’m grateful for the quick recovery. My balance is still slightly off, but I’m working on it.
So, now I have less than 3 weeks to go. I had a good training schedule and I kept on it until it started raining more recently. I still keep up my regular workouts (kickboxing, circuit sport, weights, spinning), but I added running 15-25 miles during the week whenever I can cumulatively. I know I’m supposed to back off the classes and run more, and I will. But I love my routine, and with the rain, it’s hard to train outside. So I have to keep my endurance up indoors.
So I think ‘cardio-wise,’ I can take probably 2-3 hours comfortably, but I think the marathon might take me 6 hours. The cut off is 6.5 hours. I hope I make it. Even if I just jog half and walk the rest (or maybe crawl) to cross the line. But honestly this will depend on the temperature that day (raining might be ok, but the heat is not for me), the uphill climb in some areas, my energy that day (I have be up at 3am to get ready and drive awhile to get to the starting line), my appetite (I know I’ll be hungry so those energy gels better hold me!), and I hope there are bathrooms readily accessible, because it’s the last thing I want to think of when I run, but sometimes nature calls. Ok, I’m overthinking it, but I know everyone probably thinks about all the ‘what if’s.’
And then there’s what if I forget anything…my ID, my bib, my compression socks, my sunglasses and fitbit, my sunscreen…what if I wear the wrong shoes? Luckily my running buddy is going with me so hopefully she will help me sort through this on race day.
So here’s the self talk of motivation and inspiration. I have to remind myself this is just for fun. This is a mental block and I need to stay positive.
- I’m not in this for time nor prize.
- Running a marathon was on my bucket list and I’m not getting any younger.
- I was unhealthy and over 200 pounds after having kids (especially after a set of twins), I promised myself I will not go back. So even though I’m not at my target weight, I feel like I’m fit and that’s what matters. And I’m eating healthier (ok just not today).
- If I can just get to the finish line in time, if I have to crawl to it, I will have hit my goal.
One of my gym instructors always says, “If you never try, you don’t know what you are capable of.” I think I’ll take that to heart for the time being and just do my best. At the end of the day, since I paid for the registration already, I might as well at least try and get a free t-shirt and finisher medal. In the meantime, if you have any insight or motivation for pre-marathon jitters, I would really appreciate a comment. If weather permits, I’m running 18-20 miles this weekend in preparation. Preparing for a marathon is an experience of a lifetime and I’ll need all the luck I can get! Thank you for reading and I will update…